It’s been a year now.
I’ve finally realized for a long time now,
I’ve been confusing one thing for another.
Symptoms misplaced and misinterpreted.
Essentially creating unnecessary pain.
Well, when would it actually be necessary to manufacture and self-inflict pain?
I wouldn’t even want to determine such a reason.
Creating and perpetuating fear
(I won’t need to deem this unnecessary, will I?)
which eventually became a steadfast habit.
But if that’s all it is,
then this awareness is a blessing,
and the best is yet to come.